To Goldie, with love.

So Goldie's baby book is of the short and sweet variety. It's for the busy parents..not that I'm not busy...but I love to write so obviously I've been feeling silenced in the process of filling it out each month. I've filled out most of the margins with extra bits I know I'll forget later and still I've had lots of overflow onto the notes section of my phone. Reading my own baby book makes me realize how important these little notes are. I think when I read the margin notes from my mom and dad in my Peter Rabbit baby book is when I feel the most worthy of love and happiness. You can't fabricate that, and you can't measure the value. Anyway, I thought it would be fun to share some of the overflow every now and then.  ♥

June 11, 2013 

Goldie, I felt the sweetest heartbreak tonight watching you sleep. Did you wake up three more times before I went to bed? Yes. Will you wake up three more times before 7am? Yes, but I am way more than happy to completely devote a tiny portion of my life to tend to your every need. I know the day will come when you don't need me and that breaks my heart but also makes me so proud of you in advance. Until then, I will continue to comfort you before you even get the chance to cry, I will anticipate your every need, try to earn your complete trust, and give you the confidence you need to be independent later. Just know that I'm so proud of who you'll become. I have so much faith in you. 

 June 7, 2013 

Goldie, today you put yourself to sleep for the first time. Sure, it was after being bounced and fed four times...but you laid there with your eyes open and went to sleep all by yourself. I cried because it's one of your very first moves of independence. I love you so much, sweet baby.

 May 1, 2013 

Goldie, this morning you were in your Auntie's arms and you were leaning toward me and kinda reaching out for me to get you. Kind of a dream come true. You will be 1/2 a year on Friday. Crazy. The weather is warming up and every day is beautiful (except when it rains and I can't walk you in the ergo). We signed papers for our new house yesterday. You might walk for the first time in that house! 

 April 24, 2013 

Today I was in the kitchen making dinner (fettuccine with tomato cream sauce) and your Daddy was holding you. I walked toward you and chanted, "Goldie's so sweet, sweet enough to eat!" You gave me the sweetest smiles and laughs so I did it at least 10 times in a row! :) You make your Mama feel so good about herself. You're such a charmer! 

April 15, 2013 

 I want to remember 5.5 months as the most joy filled weeks we've had with you, sweet baby. I am sitting out on the deck at Petway. It's 7:23PM and we just put you to sleep for the night (maybe). I am enjoying the last bits of this beautiful Spring daylight. The birds are chirping, the sun is setting, and the moon is getting ready to start it's shift. I just want you to know that you are bringing me endless joy these days. These are the days.




Have a beautiful day, everyone! Hug your loved ones extra tight today. Life is short and precious.

XO! Coury